Thursday, January 7, 2010

Becoming Mommy ....





It was November ,the 3rd, 5' O clock in the evening and I was lying on the operation table. I wasn't thinking anything except that I was feeling too very cold because of all the air conditioners. It was like being wrapped inside a refrigerator. It was just a little while before the doctor arrived, but I felt like it took eternity. The operation started, still I wasn't thinking anything much, I just wanted everything to get over soon. After a short while, I heard everyone hustling around and all of a sudden I heard a baby crying. It was a cry that made me cry and smile at the same time. At that moment I felt my eyes go moist, and the tears rolled out. It was a feeling of sheer joy:), A feeling I've never felt before, tears in my eyes and a broad smile on my face. And I heard the doc telling my dad(Who was also in the OT) "Congrats doctre, gand magu"(Congrats doctor, It's a boy).

I then stareted to feel desperate to see my baby, 'Well! Im an a mom now:)', I thought. After a short while the doc got my baby , all cleaned and packed, he held my baby right in front of my face as I was still under the knife. Oh God! how cute he looked. He was squirming and making a cute expression on his face. And then the doc held the baby such that he touched my forehead. And then I kissed him, the first touch, the first kiss. He was all soft and cuddly like a soft pillow:) and he looked like a cute little doll. He is my Son. Yes!!! He is my son, a part of me! .......And then the doc carried him away. As soon as the operation got over, I was carried out and I met my hubby and my parents outside. My hubby and me exchanged our wishes , I could see the happiness on his face, he didn't know what to say to me. Oh yes , and we pet named him 'Lucky'!. And after a 5 day stay in the hospital we took our 'lucky' home:) He was welcomed by his grandparents and great grandma's . Thus started my motherhood.

My daily routine now is all for Lucky. He pees and poops and pukes. Clean him, feed him, burp him, put him to sleep , watch him with wide eyes is all I do. His eyes enthrall me, his smile mesmerizes me, his angelic face warms me, his touch delights me, his cry worries me, his cute little hands and legs nudges me to hold him in my arms. Life has changed so completely for us having a tiny new addition to our family .Awwwwww, The joy of being a Mother!!!! It Never Ends.....